Colors

I like darkness, any light no matter how faint, other than black shall not do. But the black must not be monotonous, it must be interrupted by brief, sharp, narrow intervals of light. But the flashes can't be too near, they must not fall on my eyes, my precious eyes must be in darkness looking far away, at a small spec of light. After all isn't that what eyes are for, to be looking at things far away, with little care of what's nearby. I love incoherence, there is something mysterious and magnificent about incoherence, but the incoherence must be sparse, too much of it makes incoherence less mysterious, and more common. Common things are boring, that's why I like to keep them in the dark, and just focus on the sparks of light, and how bright they are. Other people like to keep everything else in the light as well, then the incoherence shines brighter, and they love it more. I also pretend sometimes I see the incoherence for the most beautiful  thing I know, and not the only beautiful thing I know. The bright people in time see so many strains of incoherence, that even the minutest strain of new incoherence becomes rare, they start to wonder over the most unyielding bits. I feel cheated, are we not people of darkness supposed to be better positioned to identify light lashes of incoherence admist the sea of  darkness. Should I switch over to light and get so bored with normal sunshine that the incoherence catches the eye, even if it is in the mildest dose? You see, darkness attracts more than brightness to the soul. How much beauty I see with this transition will determine, if I have gone to three from two or to one from two. I actually would prefer one from two, the higher you are, the harder the fall looks. Really if you are in level three, it's better to pretend to be in level one, you can enjoy high class privileges without fearing the fall. Level's don't matter, analyzing the sky scape with a microscope is the name of the game. If you look far enough you will find incoherence, right? Well that's probably not true. Never fear from venturing into the unknown, the ridicule of trying to find something incredibly obscure is meaningless,   Whoever sees the farthest, might seem to be able to see far, but actually only has the balls to search in the wildest places. Balls, that's what it comes down to. Does music help? Of course, more so for the darker soul it drives, music cuts through the darkness better, you see. Rallying the eyes with music is acceptable. I like the idea of toiling in the sun to make a living, as opposed to being the slick dude who sees through the silence. Maybe I shall toggle between light and dark in a serene , be it slightly complicated manner, when people do complicated things, they always try to sill have a measure of enforceable control on the complication. Why don't we just let go of the complicated structure, run around fast on the level ground, trying to get a grip on the complication. Trust me, running around fast helps. People believe if they hold on to the complication long enough, they will get a feel for it, and the whole thing will become uncomplicated. To some extent, the classical waiting and feeling works, some people can absorb fast, wait less, and  start initiating the run around technique faster. You must be balanced on all fronts, balance is of essence, skew-ness is of little use early on? Even later skew-ness doesn't mean the opposite of symmetry, it means something close to symmetric, or a different type of symmetry . To you I confess all my dear. But remember confessions may not, for various reasons be wholly or even partly true.